Expectation

Things that are unexpected are usually the best things. You know, those called the "little things in life." The trick is to have no expectations for anything. That way everything will be unexpected. The happiest person may be one that has no expectations. Everything would exceed his/her expectation, since it's non-existence.

Blankness

空白の部屋に
偽りの空気が漂う

虚ろの空間に
躓いて居座ってしまう私の存在

そのまま
渦巻かされそう

永遠に感じる

僕たちはすれ違ってばかり

でも、君は振り向かない、私だけ

一方通行

届かない

終わりを告げない

迷子の手紙みたい

Chaos Theory

... but organized

道草を食べながらの一本道

The future will reveal itself as it unwraps in the present.

SPICE!

香辛料に好き嫌いがあるように

刺激にも好き嫌いがある。

私の好き嫌いは特に激しいのよ

君はどんなスパイスで刺激してくれる？

We started losing the music in our lives, when we started doubting our love.
We receded to our rooms, shutting ourselves in our little worlds secured with defending walls, and lost our inspiration for music.

Photos, pictures, memories are records kept only when desirable.
The others are suppressed or disposed...

not to be seen in daylight

一人旅に出ましょう

なにも追わず、追われずに
ただものごとを有りのまんま、自分のまんまで
ちょっとゆるい感じで歩きだしたい
風に乗り、水に流れ

そしたら
なんとなく
気づかないうちに
見つけるのでしょう

探してたもの
求めてたもの
欲してたもの

あなたとわたし
僕と君

いつか
いつしか

．
．
．

それまでは気持ちよく涙を流せないままでいるでしょう
切ない涙がありがとうの涙に変わるまで
収められないこの思いは思い出になれず
さまよい続けるでしょう
ワタシという国境で

BSD - Bipolar Sleep Disorder

is what I've been experiencing...

i slept for 3 hours one day, then the next for 12 hours

another day for 90 minutes, then the next for 16 hours

it's just from bad time management and probably lack of concentration..

so you could just call it:

Bull Shit Disorder too

茶杓銘

何がいいかな？

初めてのお茶杓だから

「初心」

というのはどうかしら？(笑)


あとはー

秋だから。。「秋雨」とか

まぁ、出来上がってからの印象で付けると思う

2 things that I have a hard time with

flirting



und



撒嬌

月静 る せ い

http://ha6.seikyou.ne.jp/home/Ruka-Se/nspage.htm

MUGEN に MUJUN

people..
risk to stay safe
stay silent to make a statement

key color

What does sapphire blue mean?

Keyword from Above:

Smile*

いつの日か

私が淋しくて、我が猫と屋根で月に照らされた海を眺めてたこと。

ただ逃げ出したかった自分の頭を冷やしたくて、冷たい夜風に揺らされてたこと。

じっとしていられなくて、でも動きも出せなくて、時間と共に凍らされたかったこと。

自ら感情を涙に移り変えなくて、天から降る人工涙に表現してもらったこと。

そんなこと私は言いましたっけ？

なんで覚えてるの？

そしてなんで気付けたの？

私がそういう行動をし出した思い

旅

http://jp.shockwave.com/animations/drama/tabibito/

Existential Dilemma

I love this, lol

新月に雨

。。新月の夜、夜の雨、雨の新月。。

幽かに見える朧な灯火
優しく包んでくれる暗闇
溶け込んでいきそうな雨だれの囁き

濡れた芝生に裸足で浸けたい
潤んだ空気の匂いを味わいたい
霧んだ雨雲のベールに触れたい

ホサネバ(笑)

a cute and playful song that kind of reflect how I deal with my laundry

「遊ぼう～」伝説

もうあの時みたいには言えない。。あんな素直に、ぽろっと(笑)

言える相手がいないのかな？
人に迷惑かもと気にしだしてしまったのかな？
なんで言えなくなったのかな？

今でも相変わらず「遊びたい」のに。。

Talent...Average

"Talent" is not a word I am associated with, but neither is "average."
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.
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"Weird?" Bingo

Staying Afloat

游不動，所以只有漂浮
但是就當連漂浮也吃力的時候，該怎麼辦？

閉著眼，憋住氣，無抵抗地躲進水裡也不是辦法
那只會隔離外界，加重壓力，增加恐懼

可是只有自己，而周圍一無所有的時候
那也真的只好二選一：掙扎浮游或安靜沉溺

"Inefficiency" is the New Way to Go

Going back to the multi-tasking topic.

Since there's not enough time, 24 hours a day, to do every single thing one at a time, we're forced into muti-tasking to meet deadlines.

one at a time method = focused, thorough, efficient in terms of total time consumption on one job; but, as its name implies, only one thing gets done.

multi-task method = focus is divided, may not be thorough, but gives multiple jobs at least some progress in a set amount of time.

I guess they are different types of efficiency.

Rio & Lima

2匹の犬を飼ったら、こう名付けようかな

Scared of Nothing

...meaning: scared of nothing or nothing?



or could it also mean: scared of everything?

in the sense of, scared of losing everything


but if there is nothing then losing everything need not be an issue to be scared of




I am not making sense, that's why I'm writing.

waiting for something to Happen

you said: ..around the corner
but I think: ..over the hill

either way, we just need to keep moving forward


休息是為了走更長遠的路


人を癒すことにより、自分も癒される

one Chaper at a time

...or maybe even one page at a time.


Multi-tasking has become the needed survival skill for modern day peeps. Sure, we do it all the time processing the massive inputs that technology has allowed us to obtain, but we're still just focusing on one thing at a time..just switching back and forth rapidly (at sometimes insane speeds).

It just doesn't seem like we were intended for multi-tasking, yet every aspect of life seems to be demanding it. Whatever happened to the more ideal "one step at a time", "one thing at a time" approach? Why are they being associated with "slow", "time-consuming", or "inefficient" when it's only natural?


Nowadays, it's so much harder to concentrate on one thing for a long time, than to do several at a time.

relationships

I just don't understand why some people have relationships one right after another. It's as if they're treating it like a disposable diapers; Once you think they're full of shit, you switch to a new one.

Smartass vs. Dumbass

It's not as extreme as the case of Genius vs. Retard, but it makes some good points in compare and contrast.

a Right to be Unhappy?

Wouldn't you agree that everybody has the "right to be happy"? But the question I wanna know is if everybody has the "right to be unhappy".

Why are people who seem to "have it all" still unhappy? Perhaps to the point that some of them even commit suicide. (e.g. Kurt Cobain)

It somehow reminded me of Maslow's hierarchy of needs.

Could it be that the higher needs are fulfilled, but not the more basic needs on the bottom of the hierarchy? If the lower needs are not fulfilled, does any of the higher needs mean anything?

pyrimid from: http://two.not2.org/psychosynthesis/articles/maslow.htm

No "No"?

I'm not sure why it's so hard to say "No." Usually I'm not afraid of being blunt but it's just so hard to turn down an offer or an invitation when you don't have a good reason to. I guess that's why I started this blog at this random hour.