What's Left?

It was pointed out to me today that I tilt my head slightly to the left when I do tea. I started to notice on my way home that I tilted my head when I read a book and when I drove my car. It's never to the right side, unless I purposely wanted to make that "?" gesture.

Then I remembered that Yui once commented on my mixi photo album saying that many of my pictures are taken from the left side.

Why am I not tilting to/looking from the right side?

I knew about some habits that I have:
a) looking into empty space when searching for words or thoughts or translating one into the other.
b) opening bottles with my left hand.
but tilting left is something new.

I know I tilt my head at times, but I didn't realize it's always left and when I concentrate/focus on something.

どうしたら。。

このもどかしさを。。

期待したくないけど、期待してしまう
戻りたくても、もう戻れない
近づきたいのに、近づけない
幸せのが辛い

はまってしまったこの渦からはもう脱け出せない
出口のない、この気持ちの渦巻き
深く深く

ドキッ　と　ズキッ
微笑み　と　泣き顔
結局ポーカーフェイスでいるしかない