栓

鬆懈了

解開了

發自內心

流露

溢出

滴落

harsh

消極

定義

劃線

冷淡

現實

殘酷

強烈

一針見血

Aristotle

"Man is by nature a political animal. He who is unable to live in society, or who has no need because he is sufficient for himself, must be either a beast or a god."

I don't know why I still remember this, but for some reason it stood out.

What's Left?

It was pointed out to me today that I tilt my head slightly to the left when I do tea. I started to notice on my way home that I tilted my head when I read a book and when I drove my car. It's never to the right side, unless I purposely wanted to make that "?" gesture.

Then I remembered that Yui once commented on my mixi photo album saying that many of my pictures are taken from the left side.

Why am I not tilting to/looking from the right side?

I knew about some habits that I have:
a) looking into empty space when searching for words or thoughts or translating one into the other.
b) opening bottles with my left hand.
but tilting left is something new.

I know I tilt my head at times, but I didn't realize it's always left and when I concentrate/focus on something.

どうしたら。。

このもどかしさを。。

期待したくないけど、期待してしまう
戻りたくても、もう戻れない
近づきたいのに、近づけない
幸せのが辛い

はまってしまったこの渦からはもう脱け出せない
出口のない、この気持ちの渦巻き
深く深く

ドキッ　と　ズキッ
微笑み　と　泣き顔
結局ポーカーフェイスでいるしかない

Expectation

Things that are unexpected are usually the best things. You know, those called the "little things in life." The trick is to have no expectations for anything. That way everything will be unexpected. The happiest person may be one that has no expectations. Everything would exceed his/her expectation, since it's non-existence.

Blankness

空白の部屋に
偽りの空気が漂う

虚ろの空間に
躓いて居座ってしまう私の存在

そのまま
渦巻かされそう